Growing up

These last Month of my life have been the hardest month I’ve seen. I’ve experienced a loss so great that it’s changed my soul. Most days I’m okay and the other days I’ve realized it’s okay to not always be okay. Aside from experiencing the greatest loss I’ve known, it’s been a wake up call. I realize how short life is and that we aren’t entitled to anything. So I’ve promised myself to work on being the best version of myself. I’ve realized how important it is to build meaningful relationships. Ive realized the importance of doing everything with love, so you’ll never wish you had done it any different. I’m learning to be a “kind person” (lol) and say kind words.( that’s the tough part) . I always liked to use the excuse I’m Latina so that’s just how I am, but I am making a better effort to make sure I don’t take my family or friends for granted. Life is short and I just want to make sure I make every moment, word and experience count. I’m a work in progress but that’s part of the process.


Moving on

part of moving on is learning to accept the ugly truth. While most people cling to the good memories, that provide hope, it’s time we be realistic. When your heart is overcome with an emptyness it’s time to re evaluate things. The good should always out weight the bad and when it doesn’t, it’s time you think about things. Part of loving someone is loving the good, the bad and the ugly. However, when your significant other picks and chooses when to love you, know it’s time to walk away. Giving up isn’t the same as letting go. Be smart enough to know when your wasting valuable time and effort on someone who doesn’t appreciate either. You should never have to fight for a spot in someone’s life or compete with other people. I’ve learned the ugly truth. The ugly truth about loving someone I was never going to be number one to. The ugly truth about realizing after investing over a year to overcome my own fears and theirs I still didn’t measure up, they still found any reason and excuse to not commit. Sometimes you let people destroy who you are, and I guess it’s going to be okay it gives you the chance to build yourself as you should be. They say life is all about the lessons you learn along the way and the people who taught you them……

To the one who let me go, Thank you. Thank you for giving me a chance to see things how they truly are and how green the grass is on the other side. Initially when you part ways with anyone who’s been a significant person in your life over an extended period of time, you feel lost and betrayed. And that’s okay, it’s okay to not always be okay. I think for anyone one of the worst feelings is to know the person you loved never felt the same. I know personally,  I was searching for answers. because like everything in my life I want things explained in great detail. However some things are better left unsaid. Some things don’t require an answer or response. The best thing that ever happened to me was for me to realize where I was at this stage in my life. You lose so many people along the way in life, way more than you’ll ever find. Some people are meant to be lost, some people come into your life just to teach a lesson before they go on their own journey. So observe, take something away from each person you encounter. I found that period of my life to be the time where I really grew into myself. nothing will change your soul like someone tearing apart your soul and inner peace. I found this as a time to rebuild, things the way I wanted them. A learning experience of my life to make sure I never become that person I once was, to figure out exactly who I was and exactly what I was looking for in someone else.

Living up to Boston’s identity

While the Boston Bruins have had their share of struggles as of recently they look to head into Texas tomorrow to take on the Dallas Stars. Despite their last few games where they have fallen short and even most recently on home ice to Toronto, they look to change the momentum. While on their west coast trip most recently they fell short to the ducks and the kings and managed to get a shutout on the road in San Jose. While most didn’t give the Bruins their dues for the shutout on the road in a very hard to win shark tank, I look at it as a great push to give the Bruins. While some speculate that Boston’s Tuukka Rask is the underlying problem, I beg to differ. Sure everyone wants a goal tender who can generate shutouts on a nightly basis and everyone wins. This is reality and unfortunately even the most talented goalies in the league let goals in and lose games.  Sure it’s easy to say if Tuukka Rask had less goals scored against everything would be fine, but that’s not the case. Everyone looks past the fact that Tuukka Rask has the most shutouts of any goaltender this season with 5. A goalie is only a good as the defense it’s provided and Boston’s defense has had some holes in it. With injuries all over their lineup and them having to call up players on short notice that makes for a big impact overall. While  Chris Kelly, Dougie Hamilton, Louie Eriksson, Alex Caron, Dennis Seidenberg have all been out due to injuries and the suspended Shawn Thorton. The B’s look forward to having Shawn Thornton in the lineup in his second game back.

Aside from all the injuries the Bruins are having to battle through and holes to fill in the lineup, they haven’t had the goal scoring that we are accustomed to seeing from the B’s.  With Boston’s top lines not contributing to the offense in these games, it has had a negative impact on their overall performance. If the Bruins plan on heading into Dallas and getting a win on the road they will need to generate offense and find a way to stop the hot Tyler Seguin. I’m sure for the Bruins it’s a bitter feeling to see how well he is blossoming after they traded him following the loss in the Stanley Cup. While Seguin struggled in the playoffs and Stanley Cup to come alive and be the effective goal scorer he had been in the season, he has had no trouble this season with his new team. Especially noting in the first game Tyler Seguin and Rich Peverley played against their former team this season they both had the scored in shootout against Tuukka for the game winning goals. 

A very competitive and physical Boston team will be heading into Dallas looking to get a win on the road.  Heading into Dallas, Boston’s top lines need to be able to perform at the level we expect. The B’s defense needs to tie up the loose ends on the defensive side. Boston’s defense has to be dominate. Boston has always been known for the physical and dominate style hockey and they need to continue to live up to this. Even with key injuries they must find a way to power through with their young players lead by Captain Zdeno Chara. Its time for the Veteran players of the Boston Bruins to boost up the morale of this struggling team composed of many young, new players. While the Bruins are no stranger to adversity and overcoming hurdles in the season, they need to make sure to make the adjustments sooner than later.